I am not

I am not.

Not a girl

Not a woman, not a man

Not the abuse victim,

Not the abuser

I am Human

Living, Breathing, Walking, Being

Human

Loss Limitless

Loss Limitless

Broken pieces of human lore
Facing each day with memories
Once close - within my arms
Ripped out and burried.

Stripped to innocence
Immaculate yet unclean
Underneath your grasp

Spiraling candent angels
Screaming with lifeless children in their arms
Scratching at the walls -
Clawing at your coat tails
Justification?

Motionless in motion
Carried each day
Backlash and pride
All suffered
Human at last.

Haven't written for a while, here's some poems.

The world spins apart when I look in your eyes.

My mind falls away and you leave me behind.

Every night I see you, I run away.

Every time I leave you, I wish I had stayed.

Much more than that, I wish we had played.

Dream big my friend and you will lose me

Dream in tiny bursts and you might stand me

The freedom I seek can’t live beside you

The love I shy from is coming from you.

Find me alone and you get nothing but walls,

Discover my pain and those walls will rebuild

Enter my fortress and you’re never coming back

Stand at the door and I won’t let you look back

You tear my apart when you smile down at me

I can’t seem to speak the words that I long each day to say

I’m more frightened of love than I am rejection